It is funny how you can be so sure your fine for so long, then suddenly everything you have been avoiding thinking about creeps up behind you, taps you on the shoulder to reminds you it's not going anywhere. It's not until you take the time to think about it, think of a strategy to get through it, that it re-masks itself as your shadow... until next time.
I have always been a very open person, ask me a question, I'll answer you honestly (well, I exaggerate some stories - but hay... I'm just making for a good performance, never anything serious) but I have come to realize of late, occasionally amongst my laughter hides my fears. I laugh when I am uncomfortable, not just when I am happy. I laugh when I am nervous, not because I am finding someone in the room funny. I laugh when I want to cry because I can't bare the thought of the burden that puts on someone else. Sometimes, like tonight, I look sombre. A blank expression, with a touch of blue behind my eyes. When you see that expression, I am not asking for your sympathy. I am not asking for a hug. I am simply asking that you understand... today - I am finding life just a little harder then I did yesterday and be patient, because I know...
Tomorrow is another day.
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